Dec. 29, 2006

6:30 P.M. Well another day here and gone, Stacey was calm this morning but went just the opposite this evening. But hoping few more weeks and we can but her on better medicine that will level her out some. We had few people stop by to see her. They had brought her christmas gifts by and to wish her a good New Year. Not much again this evening to say so untill tomorrow. Also I am going to start puting pictures of her and all her friends, just untill I get another camera that I can put pictures on the site. Thank You and God Bless.

Dec. 28, 2006

10:00 P.M. Sorry to everyone for the last few nights, they have been such long days, Stacey has still be in and out of her moods. I got a phone call the other night from a friend that I made up at St Johns, her son was in there for a head trauma also put she just got back not to long ago from Illinois and brought her son home. She had called me to let me know that when they had returned from the rehabs that they were in that they are to go back to the Doctor's from St Johns which I didn't know, she had told me that they but her son on better medicine that what the old rehab center had him on, and her son is actually starting to respond more than what he did from meds at the other place. And they actually have him in a day rehab up there. So I called today and made an appointment actually two of them, I sit them up for the 15th of January, so I am hoping that they will have some better insight on other medicines for her. I know that she still is not ready for a Day Rehab, but with maybe different medicine it will not be long before she is ready. The 15th of January will mark her 5 months mark, I am hoping they will have something for her. So that is all for this evening. Thank You and God Bless.

Dec. 25, 2006

5:30 P.M. Merry Christmas to everyone, I hope you all had a very good Christmas. Stacey was agitate again today, I really am not understanding the moods she gets in, it is almost if she is pissed off at everyone, almost like she is pissed off at the world so she tries to make us upset to. I'm not sure it's just so hard to understand, threw everyone else that I have seen, with other families and with there children's head trauma what they have went threw, I just have never seen anyone get so upset at everything the way she is. I don't know if she actually realizes what has happen and she is not going to try anything because of her feeling sorry for herself, or what it is, it seems everything we try to do with her she fights so hard to do just the opposite. I knew that we may be going threw something like this but I figured it would be later when she did come out of the coma stages, I was afraid that she would get really depressed after she seen the scares and all. I'm not sure if she is not going threw it now, because she is constantly looking at her arms and feeling the scares and feeling her belly. But then again I am not sure I just wish I could get in her head and see what is going on. But one thing that she does not count on is her mother being just as bull headed as she is, and I will not give up until she is up and back to Stacey, this she can count on. But I'm sorry not trying to sound like a sob story, these are just things that I try and get off my chest, the blog really helps me a lot, its like sitting down and talking to everyone as if you were here. But thanks for being out there Thanks for reading and please if anyone has ideals or just would like to respond don't be shy talk away, your versions of things help me to, so anything you say is never wrong, everyone's opinion helps. Thanks and God Bless.

Dec. 24, 2006

8:30 P.M. Not much to say this evening, we opened presents our tonight we still could not get Stacey to open any of hers, she was really agited today not sure what this was all about, but it would not jave been christmas without her. I am just ready for this year to be over, which it won't be to long and we will have a new year to start new things, and I know it will be a better year. Again Thanks to all who has been so wonderful to us for Stacey, the support and all the prayers, and just for being there for us. THANK YOU ALL I hope you all have a very MERRY CHRISTMAS. God Bless.

Dec. 23, 2006

8:30 P.M. Well today was another good day she was a little agitated at times but she had a lot of visitors today so that may of had something to do with it. I would like to thank all who stopped by to give Stacey gift cards for her Christmas I know it's not what you would regularly give her, but this way we can get what she needs, plus I may try to keep a lot of them until she gets better so she can go shopping for herself, I know this will help her out in her recovery if she can so shopping like she did before. I would like to Thank everyone for all there support threw all of this with Stacey, I can not every Thank everyone enough for all your continuous support, and all your prayers. I know with all of you and your prayers it has made things a little easier here for all of us. I again would like to remind everyone to make sure especially this time of the year to make sure you cherish every moment of all of your loved ones, make sure you give extra hugs and make sure you tell people you love and care about how you feel, because you never now when or if you will get another chance to tell that person how you feel so make sure you take every opportunity you can for this. Thank You again and God Bless.

Dec. 22, 2006

7:00 P.M. Well Stacey was a little more calmer today, we changed one of her medicines to given it to her at bed time instead of morning it seems like she did better with it today I am hoping that it will stay that way, but I guess we will see. Not much to say today we kinda of kicked back and did not push as much, we are trying some other approaches to see how she will respond to them. So until tomorrow. Thank You and God Bless.

Dec. 21, 2006

5:00 P.M. Well again another week just about gone and I guess I should say a year gone doesn't seem like it but I am hoping next year will be better than this year, in fact I know it has to be better, I am just wondering how Stacey is going to feel about missing all this time, I mean she is not even aware it is Christmas we tried to give her one of her Christmas presents early and she did not even try to open it, it is really hard to because this is her favorite time of the year, but I am hoping that when she does start understanding, that she is grateful that she is alive, there was so many times that we just about lost her, but I know that God has left her here with us for a reason, unfortunately we do not know why, but that we are very grateful that we are given another chance, sometimes it seems very hard and it seems that we are never going to get threw this, but I know we will and even tho she will never be her old self we can be grateful that she is here at all. This is my Christmas present this year is my baby girl home with me, I wouldn't ask for anything else it just wouldn't be one without her. The last few days Ray has been working with her to stand and tonight he finally got her to for three seconds it was really amazing, she has seemed to calm down a little the last few days we have been working with her pretty regularly so I think we have been taking a little of that fire out of her, but not much more to say for this evening, until tomorrow Thank You and God Bless.

Dec. 18, 2006

8:00 P.M. Well not to much to say for the last few days no change in Stacey. I called the doctor he says the medicine should not be the cause of the outbursts he thinks that it may be that she was just starting this faze that she is going threw and it will probably get worse before it will be getting better, but he wants me to call him in a few days to see if any change in her. He may have to but her on a stronger medicine to help keep her more relaxed and focused so we will see what happens. Thank You and God Bless.

Dec. 16, 2006

6:00 P.M. Well another week here and gone, Friday we hit our 4 months mark. It is so hard to see her go threw this, to make improvements one day and do just the opposite the next day, I wish I knew more about all of this with brain injuries, I try every day to look up information on all of this, but really there is not much out there that really will hit the spot to make myself understand what she is going threw. How she can one knight and be talking on the phone like her old self, and the next few days she spits and cusses and don't even what you to touch her, or that she says that Stacey is dead she is not here anymore, or fights with you scratching and pulling your hair, and kicking you because she doesn't understand that she wears diapers and they need to be changed so she calls you sick and a pervert because you are trying to change her. I just hope she gets threw this stage soon but even after this she still will be confused at times which will still make it hard, but at least I will have more good days than bad one's like now. But I try not to let it get me down because I know she is on the verge of coming threw this stage and a new one will start, but I am really hoping we get threw this one soon it is so hard to see her like this. Maybe tomorrow everyone can pass the word for a few extra prayers for us to help all of us get threw this. Thank You and God Bless. Oh we probably will be shy on pictures for a little while Stacey's camera has finally giving out but I can't blame it none it has gone threw an accident and survived, for a while it was very good considering what it been threw.

Dec. 14, 2006

7:30 P.M. Well unfortunately not anything to report tonight, Stacey was in a very agitated state all day. Hopefully tomorrow something good will come from her. Thank You and God Bless.

10:00 P.M. Sorry this was so late tonight we had another break threw with Stacey tonight. Today Stacey was very agitated yelling and screaming at everyone more than usual we was just not sure if it is the medicine or what, then earlier she was trying to talk on the phone with her oldest brother she told him hello and then just screamed at him, but later this evening another one of her friends came by and she was talking on the phone and she asked Stacey if she wanted to talk, and she held the phone and again she said hello and that was all, then Michael her other brother had a phone call and he asked Stacey if she wanted to talk and Stacey took the phone from Michael and pulled her head to the side and but the phone to her ear and said hello, and she said who is this, and she said oh and put the phone down and looked at Michael and said Michael the phone is for you, and then we had another one of her friends call and talk to her and again she put the phone to her ear and said hello, who am I talking to, this is Stacey, I could not believe that she said all of that, I could not do anything but cry, I was so happy it was almost like seeing her on the phone before the accident. And later when we laid her down she actually was talking to us with only a few cuss words, it is just so confusing not knowing for sure if the medicine is helping or not, but I can't wait to see what happens tomorrow. Thank You and God Bless.

Dec. 12, 2006

7:15 P.M. Well another day, Stacey was pretty well mellow this morning, and tonight she was very agitated again, I'm not for sure if it's her new medicine or what but she was spiting at her visitors tonight and later she actually bit one of the girls on the cheek she didn't draw blood but the girl will have a good bruise, I'm really not sure why she was like this, tonight was a different agitation then usual, I guess we will see how she acts tomorrow it may be the new medicine, at least I'm hoping so. Well not much to say tonight so until tomorrow Thank You and God Bless.

Dec. 11, 2006

9:30 P.M. Well another day here and gone, we went to the doctor's today and he bumped up some of her medicine he thinks that Stacey is in there and she will be making a come back, he said unfortunately it want be like before but everyone will try to get her close to before, she is just doing it slowly, he was impressed with all we have got accomplished with her and she is improving every day, he is going to take some scans of her body to see were we are with the brain, the wrist, and the collar-bone and some other things that needed attention, he is going to look at getting some speech, physical therapy, and OT in here for her he said this is very much needed because she is making an improvement on everything we just got to make sure she has all the help she can get to teach her all over again and start now with it. It was really hard for him to see her, we could see it in his eyes but at the end of the visit we showed him the one trait that she didn't lose that he loved the most about her, we got her to smile, we had to act like we was taking a picture but she smiled real big and I think that made all the difference to him, because as everyone knows that was one of Stacey's best quality was her smile, she could walk in anywhere and always have a smile in her, she loved to laugh to hopefully that will come back along with the smiling eventually. But basically that is it for this evening Stacey is sleeping relaxed tonight no fighting or anything she didn't have a knapp today so she was happy to finally get in bed tonight which it made a big difference for me. Well until tomorrow. Thank You and God Bless.

Dec. 10, 2006

7:30 P.M. I am really sorry again for not updating last night it was a very long day yesterday and I had completely forgot about the blog. Yesterday we had to give her another bath due to, well lets but it like this she was needing another bath, and she did not appreciate it, she bit me on my arm and she got a very good bite this time plus a few scratches and four bruised fingers, I'm still trying to figure that one out. But towards the evening she had visitors again so she was pretty well content about that. Today she had a few visitors bringing some things buy for her, the was long, but we got threw the day with her, this evening Ray was trying to make her take the ball and throw it but it took an hour and she finally did a semi throw so we left her go for the evening. Tomorrow she has a Doctors visit so hopefully we will be able to get in and out earlier than usual, so for tonight that is all until tomorrow oh also a lot of people have asked what they can get for Stacey for x-mas and me and Ray has talked it over and right now Stacey is not needing any clothes because she has to wear sweatpants if you want you can just maybe get a gift card from Wal-Marts or something like that and when she does need things we can go get it for her or you can just wait until she's better and take her out or something, but for right now we really can't think of anything she can use, but we appreciate all of your thoughts of her at this time of the year. Thank You and God Bless.

Dec. 8, 2006

8:00 P.M. Well another week here and gone, Stacey didn't sleep good last night she slept for an hour and was awake for an hour and so on, today she took a knapp from 12-3 and she was not ready to get up. She was very agitated until friends came over to visit then she settled down some. We gave her a bath tonight while she was relaxed we still had a time with her but it wasn't as bad as last week when we gave her one, we haven't got our shower chair in yet so I've been given bed baths to her which I really don't like but it's really hard to get in the bathroom with her so it makes things really dangerous for us and her but we do our best until our things arrive. We also got her up tonight and had her take some steps for us it was still a little odd for her but considering the last four months of not taking steps she did really good, so it's something we will continue to work on. So for this evening that is all until tomorrow. Thank You and God Bless

Dec. 7, 2006

9:30 P.M. Not much this evening Stacey had a big day with a few agencies come for updates on her so she did not get to take a knapp until late, when we got her up she seemed to be more relaxed there was few cuss words and she was actually letting me give her kisses and wanting more, so it was a good night. Will try and update tomorrow. Thank You and God Bless.

Dec. 6, 2006

9:00 P.M. I am really sorry for not updating the blog last night Stacey was really agitated last night so it made for a long evening and I was ready for bed, I think my adrenaline is wearing off, seems like I don't have as much energy as I use to. Yesterday and today Stacey still had visitors, Christine Williams a friend of Stacey's has been coming over and Stacey has taken to her as far as saying words that she writes down she will read them for her, we still haven't gotten a speech therapist in yet but I think we are going to hire Christina. She has done things for other people to, I think when she sees them more and gets use to them she will start doing more things for them to. She seems to really be starting to say more words we still have a lot of the bad words coming out but she is starting to use more of other words to, and I think this is due to all of her friends, I was really hoping that would do the trick and it is more and more each day she is showing more improvements, tonight she used her right hand to actually wave at Veronca another friends that was taking a video of her, to us this was good because she hardly uses this arm at all, it was a very good surprise, but like I said I owe a lot to her friends, because I know they will be the ones to bring her back to me. Well that is it for tonight will have more updates for you tomorrow. Thank You and God Bless.

Dec. 4, 2006

8:30 P.M. We had a very interesting day today one of Stacey's friends came by this morning and got her to say colors and names after writing them down on paper. She had other friends come by today to see her we was able to take more pictures of her all smiles again. We also done an experiment tonight she was still grabbing for my hand tonight when I was feeding her, so we made her hold it taking it from my hand and holding it in hers and her putting it in her mouth, it was a little messy but she was getting the general ideal so it won't be long before she will be doing it on her own, but she does have the sippy cup down tho, she has been using it more correctly today. So that was most of the day I am putting another picture on from today. Thank You and God Bless.

Dec. 3, 2006

11:00 P.M. Sorry this was late tonight had some things needing my attention before I went to bed, try to keep caught up as much as possible. Stacey was in and out today, she had a lot of visitors, some she did good with and others unfortunately got to see her fall asleep, but all and all she seemed to have another good day. Tonight she seemed extra hungry I guess I was not feeding it to her fast enough so she started grabbing my hand and bringing the spoon, actually putting it in her mouth. Ray got her to start drinking the sippy cup by her self tonight he still had to work with as far as helping her with her hand position but as soon as it hit her mouth she was off and running as far as drinking on her own, but then she would throw it on the floor, but there was some improvements in her, we will just need to keep working with her. Again not much to say tonight except please keep us in your prayers. Thank You and God Bless.

Dec. 2, 2006

9:00 P.M. Well again another good day, Stacey had a lot of visitors, she was agitated at first but then started to calm down some. It was really good to see her with her friends and coming around like she did, I'm really hoping all the interaction with her friends will help her to want to try to do more things on her own, I'm not sure if it will but I know it couldn't hurt anything. Stacey didn't get a knapp in today so she is doing some major snoring right now which means she will sleep good tonight, if she ever gets around to reading these she is so going to kick my butt for telling all her secrets like snoring, that may be what I'm getting now, at least it feels like it sometimes. But not to much tonight to tell but did take pictures today, and again she was all smiles for the camera, so threw all the blog I will have some pictures to share with everyone night after night. Thank You and God Bless.

Dec. 1, 2006

8:00 P.M. Well another day, Stacey seems to be withdrawing, we think it is due to a medicine that we are having problems getting, this is a medicine that the doctor has to get approve from Medicaid to pay for, and it seems that they are taking there time to get approved. This medicine is one that actually stimulated her mind and keeps her awake and alert, but the last few days we have been seeing her decline, I thought maybe she was calming down but we realized it was the medicine. It seems like she is really tired and it has at least today been hard to keep her awake. We gave her a bath tonight thanks to Ray helping, we still haven't received our shower chair so it was a little difficult to get her in and out, but Ray did a good job he just picked her up all three times, of course he has been helping out at night of just picking her up and putting her in bed. Even tho she tries to fight, I know it is easier on her to be cradled when being picked up then us pulling on her under her arms, especially since her collar bone is still fractured. Well not to much more to say this evening so I'm going to but another picture from the other night on her until tomorrow, we have a few of her friends coming over, so will take more pictures then and put on blog. If any one needs to get a hold of me my cell is on the fritz for a few days so just give me a call on the house phone 573-237-2170 about visiting or just about Stacey. Thank You All and God Bless.