June 30, 2007

9:20 P.M. Well we finally got Stacey home, she was not real sure we was taking her home so she didn't act to excited about when we showed up, but as soon as she seen we were packing up her things she was running up and down halls in the wheelchair just waiting for them to open the doors, and oh my goodness when they did she was out the doors and gone, I had to stay and sign some release papers and Ray was pushing her things when he had to stop and go direct her in the right direction and then he had to hurry up because he thought she was going to catch the elevator before he caught up to her. But she was quiet for a little while, but then I started doing some of our old play games and it wasn't long she was chatting up a storm and I was able to get a few smiles out of her. I was really so glad to be bringing her home, I don't think I really realized how much I really missed her. But we got home and Ray's mom had the outside covered with balloons for her birthday and for her coming home, it was really nice so then we had alot of people stop by to welcome her home, she didn't care to much at first but then she was looking at everyone and answering there questions mainly yes and no, but I asked her plenty of times if she was glad to be home and she said yes, so by 7:30 she was in bed she was falling asleep on us so we laid her down and she was out like a light. Then we got up early Friday morning for her dental surgery and we got in at 7:30 but after blood work and getting a IV started she didn't get in for surgery or cleaning until 10:00 but it didn't take long, one twist of the IV and she was out like a light, it took them an hour and half and then they came to talk with me they said with all that she has been threw she was starting to get 4 cavities on the top 2 on each side they were small but they went ahead and took care of them, but with the malnutrition at the beginning of when she was not able to eat because of her spleen for weeks her teeth got loose and some are twisted a little, and for not being able to brush them for 10 months he said they were not that bad, he said it was good that she took such good care of them before, that may have been the only thing that saved her teeth. I was really glad to hear the news, I thought for sure they would have to pull some of them, and that would have been bad, she was really particular about her teeth, so I was glad it went well. So we came home and ate dinner and again she went to bed early. Today we got her up and I was able to get her in the shower myself she has really been doing more when we ask than usual, but we gave her a shower and fixed her up for today we had her birthday party today and alot of people showed up, was not expecting that many but it was nice, I think she was even enjoying it to, it took a few times but she finally blew out her candles for me, but she ate and visited and then ate some cake, I laid her down at 6:30 to change her and I said ok lets get up and she said no it time for bed, so I thought she just wanted to lay down for awhile but then she started taking her shirt of and her shorts off so I said I guess your ready for bed then uh and she said yeah. I looked back in on her at 7:00 and she was out and she is still sawing logs now. I am not use to her going to bed so early or so easily but these last three days have been long days, so I guess I don't blame her. She is not on any meds right now and she has the shakes which she had them before but it seems to be more worse now, but a few people told it may just be side affects from them stopping all her meds at once like he did, I'm not for sure but I guess we will see, we did say we wanted to see what she was like on no meds. But all and all it was a good end to the week, I still need to get my paper work into the YMCA and then we can start taking her and getting started on getting her up on her feet, I can't wait from what little I have seen since she has been home hopefully it won't take long. Well I guess that is all for tonight Thank You All and God Bless. I tried to get a picture on tonight of her from today but for some reason the pictures I downloaded will not come up on the blog so maybe next week. SORRY!

June 22, 2007

6:30 P.M.

Well another week here and gone, I received another phone call today from MRC they were not able to find another Rehab. that would take her on a Day Program which I had already knew.I have done alot of soul searching this last week, and a friend had reminded me of something that she left on the comment blog, which it wasn't directed at me but it did get me to do alot of searching for myself and for Stacey. The last blog I left was rude of me in alot of ways rude to alot of people. The comment on the blog got me to soul searching because it was about being wrapped in our own life and forgotten the little things and people around us, I had never thought that I would have forgotten that so soon after Stacey's accident because I myself did leave a note to everyone else in a blog about this, and I have went and done it again, as I wrote in the blog last week I keep referring to me, but really it wasn't, yes I had some to do with Stacey's recovery and Stacey had some to do with her recovery, but I missed alot of other people who also had alot to do with her recovery and I would like to take the chance now to apologize to all of you. To Ranken and MRC I am not aware of your procedures and protocols but I know you did all you good do in your means to help Stacey, but just maybe in the near future you all can chance some of your procedures and so called protocols to do more for ones like Stacey, instead of just offering Nursing Homes, offering more time and assistants to them because these are the people that you will receive your true accomplishments and your reputations. I apologize and would like to Thank You, if nothing else you have given me a month to reboot and get back to energizing myself for my continue task ahead of me.

To all the many all over the world who has prayed the so many prayers day after day and night after night I would like to apologize to you, if not for you I may not have my baby girl today or she may have turned out to be just a shell in Stacey's body, but she has survived and is heath and is making progress every day even tho it may be slow she is continuing the improvements, so I would like to Thank all of you for your prayers because I believe you have been a big factor in her recovery also so THANK YOU!!!!

To all her friends and there family's I would like to apologize, because of your continuous efforts to come and visit her, even tho it was hard you continued to come back and visit, and it may have not seem much at the time, but you all to have played a big factor in her recovery and I would also like to THANK YOU!!!!!

To Rays' family I would like to apologize, do to your continuous support with me and Ray with Stacey you all have played another big factor in Stacey's recovery, and I would like to THANK YOU!!!!!!

And to the school and Mrs. Moloney I would like to apologize if not for you Mrs. Moloney, things may not have started to piece together, and for your continuously pushing her and being just as stubborn as she was you got threw. I just wish I would have gave you more time with her, but I also would like to THANK YOU!!!!!!! And hope to see you start back up with her in a few months.

And to my final person the one true person that has been by my side threw all of this, my best friend in the world Ray, I owe you the biggest apology. We have been together for six years and he has been by my side all these years even threw alot of things that I probably would have left him along time ago because I would think he was nuts, but I'm not sure maybe that's what he thinks of me.(Joke) But he has been there for me especially these last 10 months even tho he has had continuous health problems in his own family he has made time for all, not only has he been there he has been there spiritually, mentally, physically, and financially. He has came home after working long hours and said ok my turn and send me somewhere to get me out of the house, he to has played a big factor in alot of her recovery to being stubborn also and getting her to do things I ran out of energy on. But he continues to be the biggest contributor to me and Stacey, and I have to say I think the lord was looking out for me six years ago, because without him I really don't think I would have made it this far, Ray THANK YOU. I have been offered three great jobs that I have not had in a very long time and I was very excited, I thought just maybe I could work and still have time for all my plans for her to, but after doing more soul searching, I knew this was not a option because soon work would take all my devotion and Stacey would be but to the side, just like if I would have agreed to but her in a nursing home, that is not my goal, my goal is getting Stacey up on her feet and back to her life. So I declined my offers it was really hard, but yet I felt a peace in me that I haven't felt in a long time. We are going to try and get financial aid threw the YMCA to continue with her daily Rehab. I believe with the pool and the Gym and some of the exercise equipment we just may be able to pull this off and get her on her feet, I really believe this in my heart. But again I apologize and I greatly appreciate every one's effort in my daughters recovery and again would like to say THANK YOU.

I will post on the blog next Friday and let everyone know about our trip home and about her dental surgery on Friday so until then God Bless.

Friday, June 15, 2007

12:00 A.M.

Well as we continue into our 10 months with Stacey, MRC in MOUNT VERNON, MISSOURI HAS FAILED US AGAIN!!!!!

I received my conference call on Wednesday with MRC and they had advised me that they are sending Stacey home when I go and get her on the 28th of this month. There reason, they know she has the ability to do everything she needs to do, but she is not willing to do all them, so until she complies she will need to be sent home OH! I'm sorry they didn't want to send her home, they thought it best for ME that she be sent to a nursing home, OH! but that soon changed when I said NO NURSING HOME. Then it was in her best interest to go to a nursing home so SHE could get the continued rehab. that she needs, so I asked, I didn't know that nursing homes had the equipment that is needed to get Stacey back up on her feet and walk! There reply most are not but there is a couple that go beyond nursing home care and give her daily therapy range of motion and so on! Then they point the finger at me saying she needs the therapy and I need to make sure she gets it! My reply to all of this was, I love my daughter with all my heart, my daughter will not see the inside of a nursing home even the ones that go beyond, and it is NOT ME THAT IS NOT GIVING HER THE REHAB SHE NEEDS, it is all of you so called TBI facility's that is refusing her the rehab. because she is not use to all of you and refuses you, and in a two week period you can make a judgement of lets throw her in a hole and let her rote.

To all and MRC my daughter has never been a strain on me, my objection is to get her on her feet so she can hopefully one day go on with her life, you company's that say we are here for you and your daughter let us help, and when I do you then turn around and you have the balls to point the finger at me! WHEN YOU ALL REFUSED TO TREAT HER I AM THE ONE THAT BROUGHT HER HOME AND MADE HER STRONG, I AM THE ONE THAT WENT THREW ALL THE PAIN AND FEARS AND SWEAT WITH MY DAUGHTER TO GET HER WERE SHE IS TODAY!!!!!!!!!!

But that is still not good enough, well that is OK you know why? Because this makes me even stronger than before, I don't need any of your so called help, I will get my daughter up myself and get her walking and eating and talking and everything that she will need to do TO GO ON WITH HER LIFE. But let me guarantee you this, when I do all you so called TBI facility's just better watch your backs, because I will be making a big deal out of this from News Papers to News Stations, right now I am one mother that is totally pissed, I never asked for much, I was even willing to take what ever I could get, but I couldn't even get that. All I got was buried under more bills and OH I'M SORRY but we couldn't help BECAUSE WE ARE TO LAZY!!!!! OH! But get this MRC is a behavior facility, they are suppose to help get threw the behavior problems but guess what they can't help!But the thing that amazing me the most is a small town school with a teacher named Mrs. Moloney came in here and worked with Stacey an hour a day even tho she wouldn't look at her and even tho she refused to do what Mrs. Moloney asked, it took three weeks and Mrs. Moloney got her to start doing things for her even looking at her and working with her, yes Stacey was stubborn at times but that did not stop a small town teacher from working with her, and this is the kicker Mrs. Moloney does not have a PHD, but she was smart enough, and willing enough to stay with Stacey and not give up on her! I just wish that I wouldn't have wasted my time with all these facility's, because I know she would have been alot further along than were she is now. And this next school year I will ask for her to come back, because I have that much trust in her and the school to help me again with Stacey. But don't that make you wonder, who is trying and who is throwing in the towel?

I am sorry if tonight's comments has offended any of my readers, I apologize! I have just had my fill of TBI facility's and doctor's, I never asked much from any of them just a little help to get my daughter back to her going on 17 year old life, and all I can get is empty promises and a desk full of bills. May God Bless You and Your family's that you all never have to go threw all of this, But as God is my witness I will get my daughter back, and I will complete the task of getting her back on her feet.

June 10, 2007

11:30 A.M.

Well another week here and gone, I've been calling every night on Stacey they are saying she is doing really well, she is starting to use a spoon when she eats and is starting to talk a little more to them, they say she is doing well with pt, and ot and speech, they say she has her stubborn days but all and all she has been doing really good, they are still having toilet training problems but they are still continuing to keep it up. I called the other night and just about got her to talk to me but she wouldn't. I guess if I was in her shoes I wouldn't want to talk to me either. I am eager for the 28th to get her it has been so hard not being able to go see her, but the thing that I am worried about is when I do go get her on the 28th if it will be hard on both of us when I take her back on the 29th. But I know it's for her best hopefully she will think the same. I will be getting a call Tuesday to inform me more on how she is doing and how long they think she will get to stay for, so I will update you on the next blog, Thank You again for every one's continuous prayers for us. God Bless.

June 3, 2007

9:00 P.M.

Well it has been a long week, I got Stacey down to Mount Vernon ok, she talked the whole way, she was talking about if she looked cool in her glasses, which she had some sun glasses on and I told her yes she looked cool, and then she told me well take a picture then, so I pulled over and took a few pictures of her, I will put one on the blog tonight for you, and she told me she was going to need braces for her teeth soon, which really made my day because these were old memories coming back, but yet it made me more sad to know she was talking more. MRC was really glad to see Stacey they also was surprised by how far she had come since the last time they seen her in Nov. It was really hard to leave from up there, but I made myself leave early so I wouldn't start getting to attached again, I was trying to do there job for them so I knew it was time for me to leave. It made for a very long drive home. The first day they had problems with her not eating or drinking for them, but that didn't last long she finally gave in, and each day she has started doing more for them, they say every once in a while she will try and pull the stubborn act on them put she soon finds out that don't work as well as it did with mom. Today they even got her to go to the bathroom on the toilet which I was glad to hear. It just hasn't been the same around here I am still getting up every morning and checking on her, you would think after the second day I would have got use to it but I'm not. But all and all everything is looking good for her, I'm hoping that she continues to do well with them it will make me feel more at ease that I did the right thing for her this time. I will have to go up and get her on the 28 th of this month for the dentist appointment on the 29 th, her birthday is the 27 th but we will have to celebrate it a day late, I will just be glad to see her and be with her, it's really hard to be away from her, but like I said hopefully this will turn out for the best. Thank to all who commented last week it is nice to here from all of you from time to time, it gives me that extra push that I need from time to time so again THANK YOU! Well I guess that is all for tonight, I will continue with the blog but I still will keep the updates on a weekly bases, it gives me more to talk about. And to everyone THANK YOU for all the prayers. May God Bless Your Family as you have mine with your comments and your prayers.