July 26, 2008

10:00 A.M.

Well I was able to get Stacey into Rusk Rehab. they called me Tuesday and asked if I could bring her down Wednesday and so I did. Stacey seemed to take it really good while we was there, after signing some papers and getting settled in she whispered to me that she was hungry and at that same time they was bringing her a tray of food in she looked a little surprised but she started right in on it, and then she seen she had her own remote to the TV but we had to tell she had a roommate so she had to share but I don't think that sunk in, and her bed had buttons for up and down so she was already adjusting. I didn't stay long because I knew the longer I stayed the harder it was going to be for me to leave I was already crying while putting her things away in the bathroom, so I told her we were leaving and she started to get up and I said no just us(my sister and nephew and son was along) so she laid back down and said OK go. That was hard on me but I have been calling twice a day I am not getting her talk to much to me except for I don't know why Mom put me in this hospital something must be wrong with me but I don't know what and all I do is sit in my wheelchair. It gets to me, I am going down Sunday and spending the day with Stacey and going to stay and see the Doctors and Therapist Monday to see how all is going and make sure she is doing everything to her abilities and not playing them, I really want this to work, I am just so scared that it is going to be another failure, but I am going to give them every benefit of the doubt and cross my fingers and talk to everyone Monday and hope this time she will work with them, and they will work with her! It is so quite here I am not use to all this time on my hands and not hearing Stacey call Mom every five minutes, but I know I need to let this happen and start letting her go and her start getting use to other people besides me, so hopefully I can go down this weekend and put my mind at ease and try and not to worry as much. Well that is for this week I will try and write next week to let everyone know how it went! Thanks to every one's continuous support and there continuous prayers and Thanks to a very special person that is helping me this weekend you will never know how much your continuous support for me and Stacey means, just talking with with you is prayer from above may Gods blessing always shine on you as you do us! And also to everyone else who has giving continuous support and prays may God bless you also as you bless us. Pictures are from Rusk!

July 6, 2008

5 P.M.

Well another week done and gone! Everything went well with Rusk Rehab. Thursday I was really surprised at all that they were going to attempt with Stacey and actually get tests done that she needs and look into everything that is going on it was all so amazing but yet scary at the same time, I have heard things I have wanted to hear before but got disappointed, but they were amazed at all Stacey was doing and again that Ray and myself with the school's help was all the that we had and how well she was doing, but I had to let them know alot is still going on that we need answers to and they were going to do there best to answer everything we had and needed! It still is going to be scary I am just hoping that this is the right one this time and I will be one of those Mothers who are able to walk out with there child and be amazed at all they have accomplished. I know I should not get my hopes up but it has been so long and I have tried so hard for success, two years is a little longer than what I had imagined and it may be longer but I am hoping with some of the improvements that this time it will be different than all the other times, if not I will not give up, I will continue to keep pushing her, I know we still have a long ways to go but any extra improvements this time will give me alot more hope! They are talking about two weeks before they get her in so we will see. Other than that we went to see the fireworks in Herman this year Stacey was amazed at them this year and continued to ask if it was the fourth of July and when I said yes each time she got more and more excited when they went off of course she did not remember anything the next day, but this is why I take pictures so when the day comes she can remember she will be able to see all who came and seen her and all that she did just like she was there and remembered. Well that is all for this week hopefully I can get back on next week again maybe I know more about when she goes into Rusk. Hope everyone had a great and Safe Fourth of July May God Bless All Of You As Do Us!!!!!!!!!!!!! If you click on the picture of Stacey you will be able to see the fireworks behind her.