April 3, 2007

9:45 P.M. Sorry for the last posting I am not for sure why it went all the way under another blog but it did and then I could not figure how it happened or how to correct it I just left the message so I hope everyone was able to see or find it OK. Well we finally found us a new Rehab. it is Raken Jordon in Maryland Heights they are suppose to get back with me as far as when we can get started. But this place is great it has all the equipment that she needs plus more, and they are set up to take care of her every need. They even said depending were she is that they would even start bringing a teacher in to start helping with getting her prepared for going back to school, which that will be awhile before she will be able to go back to school. I am just so excited but yet I am a little gun shy, I am scared that she will start going and something will happen were she goes back into her whole that she was in before she started talking and they will stop working with her and just sent her home and tell us we have to wait again. This whole thing has been the biggest nightmare of my whole life, not only do you have to watch your child go threw all of this of rebuilding there life all over and never be able to see the child you knew before and see another person form, it's confusing at times, will she smile again the smile that everyone loved her so much for, will she maybe have a few chartists that you loved come back, how different will it really be. Don't get me wrong yes I am happy my daughter survived, I thank God everyday that she is still here with us and I would not trade her for anything and I will love her no matter what happens or how it will turn out, it is just hard to go threw all of this, hardly getting any help from the company's who promise to be there and you have to take care of everyday business yourself and take care of your child also. But the thing that gets me is if you screwed up at all they would not even blink an eye about coming and taking them away from you calling you a bad parent, because you have all of this available to you. But we will always have hurdles to jump and they can throw whatever they want at me, I won't give up until she is up on her feet and back attending school to finish here education and she is walking down the asile for her graduation that will be my day even if it is three years down the road. We are still working with transportation for Stacey they are saying now that she is not approved for transportation services but I have made a few calls so hopefully it will go threw if not we will figure something out but she will get up there, this is unfortunately another one of those hurdles that needs to be jumped and we will get over it. Stacey had a few visitors last night Dustin and Spike from Union it took a few times but she finally got there names down, they had a good visit Stacey was already getting used to them and butting her feet on there laps so they would rub her feet, which they said she always did before, so I am not sure if she had any memories of them but it didn't take long for her to make her self comfortable while they were here. Well I guess that is it for tonight I will try and update soon to let everyone know how things are going as far and rehab. and other things so will update soon. Thank You and God Bless.